Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most
This is a song by Chris Medina. The first time I heard it, I heard 'What kind of GOD would I be, If I was to leave when you need me most'
I played the song back a few times after pulling out the lyrics. Each time, instead of hearing 'guy', I heard GOD.
I cried. It's like God was telling me that He would be with me always, no matter where I am, no matter what I do. He will always keep His promises, and He will never leave me, for what kind of God would He be if He left? God would never make a promise that He can't keep. He always fulfils His promises in His time.
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.
Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
I must practice this more.
Suffering is the result of personal sin. Is that kinda like karma? What goes around, comes around?
Maybe God uses suffering as a means to get us to appreciate what we have now? We need to experience pain before we can fully experience and appreciate joy/peace?
Some suffering is the direct result of doing something we should not have done. We reap what we sow.
Don’t be misled—you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plant.
From today's devotional:
The Holy Spirit bears witness with our spirit, to confirm that we are indeed children of God. He has marked us for His own. I belong to Him and He dwells in me.
We may run away or hide from God, but there is a quiet place where He deals with us and confirms us at his own.
God, I'm glad that You brought me back to You, and You confirmed me as Your own. Help me to always walk in Your way. Amen.
Whatever is good and perfect comes down to us from God our Father, who created all the lights in the heavens. He never changes or casts a shifting shadow.
My devotional for today asked if I believe in this verse, and why.
I believe in this verse. God is faithful. His mercies endure forever. People change. Seasons change.
But He will never change.
“Honor your father and mother, as the Lord your God commanded you. Then you will live a long, full life in the land the Lord your God is giving you."
God, how do I do this?
You say to honor my parents. But I want to have as little to do with them as possible. I feel like they always want to bring me down, especially my mum.
I need their support and encouragement, not endless criticisms and scoldings..
Listen to your father, who gave you life, and don’t despise your mother when she is old.
I don't despise them. I'm just not ready to talk to them or have anything to do with them...
I need more time.
Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.
(Proverbs 16:3, NIV)
God, I commit my search for a job into Your hands. I trust that You will give me a job best suited for the talents Younhave given me.
His word gives me strength. I never thought reading the Bible would make me calmer, more contented, less worried and more peaceful.
Now that I think about it, why am I surprised? He is author and creator of my life. I shall cast all my cares and burdens unto Him and He shall grant me peace in return.
Lord, grant me wisdom to know and understand Your Word. I don't want to just read it for the sake of reading. I want to know You more and more.
God gave each of us special skills. What are mine? =\
I don't know.
I'm feeling so lethargic today. I only got 6 hrs of sleep last night. I used to sleep less..
We don't have control over what happens to us. However, what we can control is the way we deal with each situation. What I think will affect my behavior. My behavior will become habit. Habits will eventually become part of my character. That will eventually influence and shape my future. I pray for the wisdom to have the right attitude to handle any situation in a way pleasing to God.
I've always wondered why, in the Bible, where God mentions punishing sin and iniquity, the punishment could extend till the 3rd or 4th generation of the sinner's family. I thought it was unfair that the sin would affect the innocent. After all, no one would habe chosen for their parents or grandparents to commit the sin. Then I realized that that is what would hurt and make one regret it most - seeing
someone you dearly care about bearing the consequences- whether directly or indirectly- of your actions.
I want to travel. I'd like to do some exploring. I want to see the world and marvel at His creations. But I don't want to go alone. I want a friend I can trust to go with me so we can look out for each other. I never realized it before, but I am afraid of being alone. I'm afraid of being lonely.
In my reading plan for today, I read that when we feel like complaining, we should pray. Some problems can be solved by counsel, but some problems can only be solved by prayer. Complaining would raise our stress levels whereas prayer would help calm and quiet us down, and prepare us to listen.
I'm going to try to make an effort to take a moment to pray when I'm feeling frustrated or when I feel like complaining.
Do you know the feeling of being alone in a crowded place? Where you just feel disconnected from everyone? And you just wonder what you're doing there..
These days I've been enjoying my quiet time. There's something beautiful and reassuring in just quietly medidating and not thinking nonsensical thoughts that make me all emotional and depressed. It's comforting. I still don't know what will happen to me. I don't know what job I will get. I'm not sure what I want. I will try to put my entire trust in Him and know that He knows what is best for me.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
- Philippians 4:6
I'm feeling a bit more settled now. Guess my day out did me good. Takes my mind off my thoughts.
I wonder what it means to really love oneself? I don't think it means just spending money on myself. That's superficial. I guess I have to learn to accept myself.
Sometimes I wonder who I am. Am I being myself completely? Am I true to myself?
I suppose I am myself in certain ways, in front of certain people. I like being around those people whom I can just say what I want.
I came across this verse in my daily bible reading. It's a verse that came up often in Sunday school years ago but I'd forgotten. I need to practice applying God's word to my life.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding
- Proverbs 3:5
I woke up today with a clear head. I feel loads settled now. At peace. Thank you, God. I feel more released now. =)
I'm done worrying. He will provide. He will make a way for me. He will open a window for me if there is no door.
Everytime I feel afraid, I hold tighter to my faith. And I'll live, one more day, and I'll make it through the rain...
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith‚ and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God--
- Ephesians 2:8
I don't think what I'm feeling is good for me. Especially since I won't take it further. I'm not gonna let myself feel anymore. I know I can do it, its been done before. It's just a matter of time.
Maybe it's time to let go, it's time to move on...
I'm starting to become more confused the more I blog. I thought it would make me feel better but its not..I don't know how to talk about it either..
Why do so many thoughts keep flooding my mind? I want to forget about you. I don't want to be thinking about you. You flood my thoughts too much. I doubt I'm important to you anyway.
Maybe I need to work on my self defense mechanism so I can forget easily.
Yea right. I might as well ask for the sun to rise from the west. I can put it from my mind but it will still be tucked away in a hidden corner of my little heart. Emo is part of who I am.
Do you wonder how I'm doing? Do I ever cross your mind at all? Maybe I'm just thinking too much as usual.
Eli, Eli, Eli...why? Why do you think so much? Don't let anyone hurt you or disappoint you. Rely on yourself. Take care of yourself.
Someone told me I need to learn to love myself before I can expect to be loved. I don't kniw how to do that. I don't like myself. I'm not pretty. I'm not smart enough. I'm not talented. I'm not desirable. I'm not confident. I'm too naive and gullible. To be honest, I don't like myself. What is there to like?
I keep expecting to be hurt. In friendships, with family, at work, whatever. I don't know why.
Sometimes, when my thoughts get more morbid, I wonder if the world would be a better place without me? Would anyone care if I no longer existed?
Ok I feel better now after sleeping over it. Don't worry, I'm not suicidal. I just think too much for my own good.
I wonder why I feel so wistful lately. Sometimes I feel like I no longer understand my feelings.
Why do people cling to faith? Does it make them feel better? Is it how they get through life? Is it all they have left when life seems to hit rock bottom?
Is it a bad thing to feel too much?
We're all created as individuals by God. We are all His peculiar treasures. I belong to Christ. In Him I will ALWAYS belong.
“Make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you have been given, and then sink yourself into that. Don’t be impressed with yourself. Don’t compare yourself with others. Each of you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with your own life.” Galatians 6:4 (The Message)
I constantly compare myself with others. I feel as I always come up short. I'm just not good enough. I strive to achieve the best I can, but a corner of my little heart sometimes wonders why I bother. I don't know.
I wonder if all this writing I'm doing is good for me. I thought it would help me clear my head and figure some stuff out. However, I seem to be more confused than ever.
Why am I feeling so emo and wistful lately? The slightest sweet or touching thing I read or hear makes me feel like crying. I can't remember the last time I felt this sensitive..